Ah, the memories of TNG. ;-)

Wants/desires and needs are two totally separate things.  Sometimes they happen to be the same thing (I want food, I need food), but other times, the thing you want/desire may not be what you need or what is good for you at the moment.

Oh, btw, this is referring to my last post. ;-)

Anyway, lots of things coming up.  Cousin's baby shower, a wedding, Ren Faire, camping, and (hopefully) approved PAID vacation time in July!!!  Not sure what I will do, but I just wanted to finally use some of it.  Probably a lot of R and R. :)

Oh, kinda random, but do you get asked if you are married a lot, or is it just me?  Hmm.....

(BTW, thanks to triphicus  for this:)

Photography Meme


1. Ask me to take pictures of any aspect of my life you're curious about.
2. Leave your requests as comments to this entry.
3. Please look at the previous requests so as to not do repeats.
4. I'll snap the pictures and post them in future posts.

YAY pictures!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :)

Ah, wow, I totally don't feel like I did the last time I posted. AWESOME!!!! :)

Yeah, I just re-read my last few posts. I am up and awake after getting 12 hours of sleep. It's so nice what time can do to heal even our emotional wounds, as well as physical. I still get a little sad thinking about him, but nothing at all like before. And now it's only because I miss keeping in touch with him, but that is something I miss of all friends I have lost touch with.

Ahh it is nice to feel more free again. :)

In other news, I need a new coffee pot after leaving my brewer on all night the other day (bad Esther). So off to Walmart I go in a little while. I am also going to call Maintenance about my weird electricity problem in the master bed and bath. I will be so impressed if they can figure it out/fix it and so thankful because my little inquiring mind is baffled by what the heck is going on. Gotta do some housework, too. Then Jodi and I are getting lunch if possible, yay!

Also, Valentine's Day sucketh mucho. Even when I was not single, I never really liked that holiday very much. Maybe it's because I never had a boyfriend buy me jewelry (joking), or maybe it's the superficial feeling of this particular holiday and our society's screwed up view on love. Or maybe I just need some more coffee because I feel tired again and can't seem to finish my thoughts. Why did I bring this up? Oh yeah....

...V-day dinner, anyone? ;-)

I been tryin'
For a long long time
But no matter what I do
When I turn to leave
My heart stays behind
'Cause I can't get over you

I keep moving on
Runnin' hard and fast
But everywhere that I run to
I'm just standing still
Living in my past
'Cause I can't get over you

If memories were like the leaves that fall
When would I carry them from my mind?
The seasons pass, but they never change
A broken heart can't keep time

While I watch those colors
Fading in the sun
The color of my love stays true
I've been lettin' go now
I'm not holdin' on
I just can't get over you

I just can't get over you...

...so, to alleviate some stress, I am getting my first ever hot stone massage tomorrow. And a pedicure, too, yay!!! I am excited, it's an hour long, I don't think I have ever had an hour long massage before! My shoulders and back can't wait! :-)


Plans for today: clean/organize my room and get rid of some crap, then off to see Fireproof at Century 14 theaters off Ethan at 7pm. If you are free come join me. :)

Hope you are all having a great day! *big hug to everyone!*

I encourage you all to view the perspective of one who survived an abortion.

This woman, Gianna Jessen, is one of my heroes. Have you ever heard her story? I urge you to listen with an open mind.






Part 2:



"It is the mercy of God that sustains you, even when you hate Him."

Ok, so since I am still here in jury duty waiting to be called (yay for free WiFi) , I thought I would do a little post and post a few pics from my cousin's cousin's wedding (I usually just call her cousin but in reality we are not blood-related).  I have a lot of cousins like that, actually.  The non-blood-related ones.  But there are just like family and I am not one to care much about biological family ties vs. marriage ties, so, yeah, anytime we have a wedding like this, it is like a big family reunion, seeing all the family I grew up with.  It is always a good time and a good time being around "my people" from Mother Russia, haha.

My cousin Larissa is the one who got married to her man Casey.  Yes, a lot of younger cousins getting married!!  She's 21.  My cousin Christina (who is blood related) and I are the only girls not married yet that are 20 or over.  We are kind of old maids as Russian girls, but ah well, I still think I have a few good years ahead of us. ;-)



Yay, ,one of my favorite wedding moments, the kiss. :)





My family and me with the bride and groom.






My cousins and I with the beautiful bride!





Gabe, Mom, and me.





Me, Christina, Jessica, Becca, and Valerie (all cousins, Chris and Val are blood related). Btw, my cousin Chris convinced me to get those shoes....I actually thought they were "too sexy" when I first saw them. :) It was so nice to see Valerie, I hadn't seen her since she got married in January.  She moved right after marriage to Colorado after living in CA all her life.  She says it was totally worth it even though at first she was incredibly homesick....it was worth it to be with the man she loves. :-)



The cousin table!  Best table at the reception since we all tend to get a little crazy/loud when we hang out together!. ;-)



Omg, shoes.





Chris, Val, and me. :-) Yes I am the whitest white girl in CA, I think I can claim that title..


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My brother and me after the festivities.

  After the wedding, we actually went out to dinner (since it was just a dessert wedding, we were a little hungry), and then we rented a movie and went back to my cousin Sam and Jessica's new house to watch it.  After some Planet Earth and some good byes, we left at like 1:00am after spending 12 hours together.   Then I saw them all again at church in the morning since we all decided to go to check the same one out that day. Good times. :-)

In other news, still waiting to be called at Jury Duty.  My butt is beginning to fall asleep from sitting so long. 

The good news is, though, I get paid for this.  Yay!  Bad news is, I probably have to work all night tonight.  Bummers.  Ah well hopefully it goes by fast. :)  

BTW, sunflowers are such a happy flower, aren't they?

Oh man, I have been so lazy and exhausted all the time.  I have just gotten really bad about working out.  Haven't done it in forever.  And my whole sleep schedule is off.  Forgetting to take my vitamins.  So my body is not happy.  Come on come one, get happy!!  :-D

Yeah so for those who are going camping, let's go hiking and swimming and physical stuff, that would be great!!!  I think I'll go work out Thursday night, too.  At like midnight.  That would be fun. :)


Don't wanna work tonight, nope nope nope.  But it's only a 12 hour shift plus staying late for an in service meeting, then blessed sleeep and then shopping for stuff for camping, yay!

Um, what was I going to say?  Oh yeah, I was talking the other day  with some peeps from Nursing school about boys...err, men.  Well, no, boys, who don't understand how to be a gentlemen.  Like I don't understand how a boy can be like, hey, let's go to dinner, and then at the end of the evening assume YOU will pay.  What ever happened to offering to pay for the girl?  What ever happened to guys at least having some common sense in treating a lady like someone special?  How are you showing me I am special if I am the one picking you up, paying for the meal, and dropping you off?  Is it my requirement to be the man?  Well, seriously, if you are not the man, someone has to be....Some of the woman and I were just talking the other day over lunch about how we would be embarrassed if we were the guy, asking a girl out and then not paying for anything....I mean really, where have all the gentlemen gone?  And also, not having any motivation...like, to even get a job.  How do you feel fulfilled in your life by sitting at home all day?  What are you really accomplishing?  It 's just is one of those things I don't understand.  I mean, sure, if you have the money, I could see the reluctance factor in getting a job...but life would be awfully unfulfilling either way.

Ok done with that thought.  Off to get ready for work!  Good night!

So, I work Tuesday and am then off on Wednesday, Thursday, and Friday.


Let's do something.  Pretty please. :)  I took the NCLEX (Nursing boards) and have no idea how i did but my brain could sure use a rest from being squished inside my books and review course material for the last few weeks.


Also I am looking for anyone who wants to work out with me at 24 hour fitness, if any of you all have a membership there.  I need a workout partner for motivation!  haha.   I can get you a free week-long pass, too. :)

Oh one more thing: any advice on good websites to check out for apts?  I am looking in the Fair Oaks/Citrus Heights area if possible.  Any help would be awesome!

Yay, I like my new LJ theme with the little chicks and the lightening bolts.

No yay for still living at home. Ugh...

Things to do:

- Study study study mucho for NCLEX (boards). Must start doing this almost everyday, and def. every day I have off.

- Go apt. hunting

- find potential roommates

- Get my badge so I don't have to keep wearing this ugly temporary badge (which is pretty much a piece of laminated paper with my name on it, haha)!

- Go to the gym on EVERY DAY OFF.  Seriously.



For today:

- Go to work and not kill any patients and not have a heart attack from anxiety...eek!

Afterwards:

- Celebrate Independence Day with friends, yay!!!!!!!!!!!

Norma McCorvey aka "Jane Roe" of Roe vs. Wade recently did a commercial:








I find it interesting that there seem to be a lot more people that go from pro-choice to pro-life than the other way around (especially those that were once actively pro-choice...like abortionists themselves, and women like Norma). Hmm...

Anyway, feel free to comment :)

Oh, Obama, you make me laugh.
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Oh, and here is a good video I pretty much agree with:

Prolific atrocities
Twisted philosophies
It’s such a tragedy
Inside. it’s killing me
From sea to shining sea
It’s such a mystery
How their eyes just can’t see
The blood they spill freely

It’s me, myself, and I
A sullen lullaby
Is all that I can do
To keep from feeling blue
I’m numb by all this cold
And feel so very old
Am I working in vain?
I cannot stand this pain

“Dear God, please turn me into stone”
She just wanted to be alone
And not feel the pain of so many things
And not dream eternal, evil dreams

Brick walls stained solid red
Their innocent lives are shed
My heart can take no more
Is it worth dying for?

I would if I could end
this choice, never defend;
I wish that they could see
In love and purity

God, can I change my prayer?
I want no heart of stone
Nor just being alone
could heal the broken bone

Rather, I pray fervently instead
To open the world’s tightly-closed eyes
Even so-called Christians bring demise
to blessings when they believe the lies

Lord, please increase my strength
Let my heart find peace in You
For if your followers won’t fight for their precious lives
What then are we to do?

Whatever I do not do for them, I do not do for you,
Each day you are murdered 4,000 times,
Are we to blame, is it true?

Please give us all the courage, Lord,
To not stand idly by
And watch your blessings be torn in pieces
Our children, brothers, nephews, nieces…

Our ways are not your ways, Lord,
You say narrow is the path,
Father, please guide me safely home
following this aftermath




Amen.

Eep. So much homework/studying to do and I don't feel like doin' it. So instead I will post this video about the evils of propaganda on girls today (taken from a myspace friend, Rose). Enjoy!









Btw, I also watched this re-run of House the other day in which a 10 year old chubby girl takes diet pills and has a heart attack due to the adverse effects of the pills. Later the show reveals that her obesity is caused by a brain tumor on her pituitary (aka Cushing's Disease). It was sad, I hecka related to the fat girl because I was pretty chubby, especially around 5th-7th grade and had no friends just like this poor girl. Kids can be cruel, mmhmm.

Anyway, one of the doctors, Chase, kept saying, "she needs to exercise and lose weight" to cure her and kept calling her fat and lazy. At one point Chase says again to the cause of the problem "she's fat," to which Foreman yells,"Ok, we get it, you hate fat people!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"



I don't know why, but that line was freakin' hilarous. :-D

Back to school work....

If you are taking the Pill, please watch this video. 




There is a term in Nursing we use called "informed consent" for patients.  All patients need to know side effects of drugs before they are given the drug.  This does not always happen.  So, I hope this video informs you/widens your knowledge base.



To know more please read the research done by Randy Alcorn:
http://www.epm.org/articles/bcp5400.html
or download the pdf at:
http://www.epm.org/pdf/bcpill.pdf

Yep, it's true.  I went across the street of Kaiser South Sac. for hospital orientation and computer orientation today.  We were in the building for 4 hours learning the software for charting at Kaiser.  At one point we had to switch rooms and my instructor noticed a faint smell and said, "Do any of you notice that smell?"  Most people did not smell anything. "Well, if any of  you feel strange or something just let me know."  So we went on with our orientation.  At one point my friend was complaining about feeling light-headed and I was, too.  I figured it was because I had not eaten breakfast, so I ate 1/2 a granola bar and drank some coffee.  Still felt "funny" and found it hard to concentrate, but I presumed it was due to sleep deprivation the night before.  Later on, I think my instructor could not take the smell anymore and opened the door.  At this point she noticed a fire truck and a crowd of people outside with the building being lined off by some workers.  We were then told there was some kind of pesticide residue in the building and we had to evacuate immediately. 

All I could think of was how strange the day had been even prior to that. Everything seemed to go wrong.  Many of our computers had froze throughout that session, we had to leave our room because some other group had reserved it for the same time, we were in the ghetto-eist building ever, and so forth.   Yeah, what an interesting day!

The toxic chemical is an organophosphate pesticide called Parathion.  You can read about it here.

We got a handout on it  from our instructor and a few of us did have some of the symptoms including nausea, abdominal cramping, irritability, light-headedness, and fatigue.  Kinda scary, really.  My poor friend was pretty nauseous and light-headed, but she toughed it out and did not want to go get examined.  All of us seemed to be doing better after we went across the street to the hospital, ate something, and had time away from the building.  I had some weird light-headedness and nausea a little later on, but it went away before I left the hospital.

I am just so thankful to God we were out of there before too long and that no one had any serious or life-threatening effects.  Yay!

Dude, I just heard thunder!!!  And clouds are rolling in in a previously cloud-free, sunny sky!  It's a cloud just big enough to cover our little neighborhood!!!

Yep, and interesting day, indeed.

Sorry, a bit of insommnia and can't seem to concentrate on looking up meds. for homework...


So hear is my question, LJers!!!

Why the heck do women seem to think this way...

"I miss/love/enjoy Bobby.  I really want to talk to Bobby.  I am going to call and leave him a message and just wish him a good day/good luck on random project at work he is working on/let him know he is loved!" 

*leaves message*

"Wow, I hope Bobby liked my message.  I will be so happy when he calls me back to make me feel loved..."




...while men seem to think this way:

"I miss/love/enjoy Susie.  Man, I am hungy, wonder what I will have for lunch. I think I'll go eat a piece of pizza"

*4 hours later*

"Oh, look, a missed call.  It's from Susie.  That was nice of her.  Mmm....that pizza I had for lunch was soo gooood!!!!!!!!!...."

"*time passes in which Bobby plays WoW/other computer game.* 

"Oh, look, it's time for bed!  Can't wait to see what's for lunch tomorrow!"

*snore*


....am I generalizing too much?